Sunday, March 23, 2014

Teresa of Avila (1515-1582) prayer and commentary



Have you heard the phrase “This too, shall pass.”  When bad or upsetting events occur we are only too happy to see them move on, go away, and disappear.  We are ready for a change.  However when everything is going well and we are happy or even delighted with the status quo, we say, “I hope this never stops.”  “I could go on like this forever.”
However, we are often reminded “nothing ever stays the same, change is inevitable.”  What goes up must come down.”  This happens whether we want it to or not—that is the way of our nature.  We are not always in control!
As for me, I am a control freak and an impatient one at that.  You see, when I am in control (or at least I feel like I am), then I am able to direct the ups and downs. I am able to ‘massage’ events and people to follow my way. I like it like that!  And it happens when and how I want!  It feels so good to be the leader of my world and to rest knowing I have everything under control.  I had come to believe it is ALL in my hands—period—done! (Notice that is in the past tense!)
But what happens when life doesn’t go my way and I feel out of control and lost—let go from great job, a loved one dies, money is suddenly very scarce, the kids take on a new role in their life-long play.  I haven’t read this play, I don’t like it and my kids don’t even want me to comment on their performances.
I believe this why people hate change. They work so hard not to become involved or accepting of new, different, other ways. It is way too scary.  Anything could happen to me (and it usually does).  I ask myself, “Why should I change? Now what? Everything was going just fine. (Just ask me!) It is all I need!”
Now being the take control type of person that I am, patience is not my strong point.  In fact, I pray every day for more patience in whatever I do.  It is extremely difficult to go against my own nature.  How does anyone turn their life over to someone else—let alone God—someone you can’t see, can’t personally touch, someone that other people say doesn’t exist at all?  How do I let God be in control? I know what I want. I know what needs to be done and I want it now—just ask me.
But you see God has been there from the beginning. As I look back God has shown this “child”’ that God knows me better than I know myself.  God has watched me and walked with me through more ups and downs than I can remember. I can imagine God smiling and shaking God’s head like a good parent as God reviews my life.  As a loving parent to their wandering child I hear God say, “I told you, I showed you. Why didn’t you listen to me?  I have always been here when you needed me and when you didn’t. And I still am.”
As a mother/grandmother, I say to my own little ones (even if they are 40 yrs. old): “if you ever need me, just call. I’ll pick you up, I’ll be there. I am the one you can trust above all others.  No matter what happens, my love for you won’t change.  If I need to, I’ll help you pick up the pieces.” I can see God smiling as God says, “Yep, you got it now. I will always be here as I have always been with you from the beginning. You can count on me.  I’ll help guide you.  Be patient and don’t be frightened or scared.  I am truly in control and I will provide you with everything you need.” ……………..Karen L. Patton